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Two pots of coffee and too much online research into matters of familial responsibility for aging parents and now I'm in the middle of a total freakout/meltdown. And how's YOUR day going?! *hugs*
awe im sorry *hugs* its ok me idk i think my bf well soon to be ex bf is cheating on me so idk what to do
me to i am always bored lol *sighs* im kinda sad today tho lol so what kinda stuff do u do?
Let me answer that after my second pot of coffee and I might be able to produce a coherent answer...!
*LOL* Oh, yeah...feel them healin' vibes beginnin' to flow...! You're gonna be okay, aifinkso...the time-being will suck, but you'll be all right. Pretty soon you'll be having fantasies where he comes crawling back and you tell him to go to hell; won't that be nice?! I have to go wrestle a no-longer-working (dammitdammitdammit) AC out of the bedroom window and get the storm window back up, and then there's supper (that potato thing again), but I'll be around, and you've got my email - you use it if you need to, y'hear?! *hugs*
You and JA...he unwinds and releases stress by gaming, too, although not WoW. I'm not an RP gamer myself but I can sure understand the healing potential of a few dozen mortally wounded opponents. Which reminds me, I'm way overdue for some sword practice. (Yes, we really do have swords and yes, I really do know how to use them!)
I'm tempted to say, "lucky you," because I always went in the opposite direction - ate constantly and all of it high-fat, high-calorie shit. AAAAND...I had a bad habit of crawling into a bottle, too. Don't you be doing that, now, or I'll have to come down there and kick *your* butt, too! *hugs*
*heh heh heh* Yeah...I know you're saying and right now you mean it...later tonight you'll change your mind...but you'll mean it more tomorrow. And even more the day after that. ;o)
You got a bandana? Cuz you're gonna want a blindfold for what I wanna do to him. He deserves a solid bitchslap for that. Sincerely.
Welll...it's better than, say, bottling it all up for days and days and then suddenly finding yourself standing in the produce department of your local supermarket, bawling out loud while you try to select a watermelon. *lol* I soooo wish that wasn't experience talking... =P Nights are always the worst, aren't they? *pleh* I don't envy you right now, I really really don't. BTW, don't forget to take care of yourself - it's too easy to let nutrition slide. Experience talking...yet again. :/
Letting go sucks; I once had to let JA go...looong story...but even after we were married it took about five years for me to totally trust him - my feeling was, hey, he walked away from me once, who's to say he won't do it again? Eventually you'll start asking yourself if you really *want* to spend your life with someone who hurt you so badly, and when that time comes the answer may be NO. But that whole thing about, "If you love something, set it free...?" Okay, sometimes that's true. I won't tell you not to hope for it...but I will tell you that it's more than okay to cry. YOU'RE ALLOWED!!!! *hugs*
Okay, then, you don't have to watch. ;o) As I said earlier, the wound's still really fresh so *of course* you're going to go through some self-doubt - that's to be expected. But please believe me when I say it's not about how you look - and on this point I know what I'm about. JA is handsome as hell, smart, funny and could trade up in a heart-beat if he wanted to. I'm short, fat, have bad skin and am not exactly what one would call attractive...and yet, here we are, almost 18 years later and it still works. trust me on this one: when it's right, it's right, and you'll BOTH know it. *hugs* Be gentle with yourself, k?
What language? I can smell the bullshit all the way up here!! Yeah, I heard lines like that once or twice, usually accompanied by "curious." Take a little comfort in this: if he really and truly thought that, there's no way he could ever let you go. He's a liar and you can do better. And I still wanna kick his ass. >:o(
Thanks for the LOL, big guy - I just love that little fella; some pics seem to have a million stories to tell. And as far as the other....nah. You love with your heart, which ain't exactly the smartest organ we have going for us. It tends to cut off communication with the logical part of our brain at the most inconvenient times. Sooner or later, though, they start passing messages back and forth again and that's when we start thinking, "Oh, yeah, this ain't so bad." You'll get there...and you know you're on your way when you start getting really pissed about it, at least, that's been my experience. *hugs*
Oooh...that's it, I'm coming down there and kicking his ass. Why do people SAY stuff like that?! That's essentially what Krista said to me, knowing it would cut my heart out...and it damned near did. It took a long time for me to realize it - and I think you're smarter than I am so hopefully it will come more quickly to you - but ANYONE who would purposefully say something so hurtful ain't worth hurting over for very long. (But damn, getting to that point just sucks.) I has a big pissed-off for you now. *hugs*
