You're so kind Winnie! It's so good to hear from you. I appreciate you leaving me a message! I wish I could say things were better, but I suppose it is what it is at the moment lol. I won't go into details but a lot of bad crap has been happening lately and I just don't know what to do. I'm thankful to have you're wonderful lolz and messages. I hope all is going well with you and if I don't see you before then, Happy Thanksgiving!
Oh my goodness, hello there, baby boy! I'm not on the site much anymore but I am SO GLAD i decided to pop in! I hope all's good with you because I sure have missed your handsome face and beautiful soul. :o) *hugshugshugs*
That's very sad news indeed. There's no way she could stay at home with a service like Comfort Keepers? I'll lift her towards the Light for you. I guess I'll go ahead and pray for you too. ;o) Love ya, baby boy. *hugs*
You know what they say: pain is inevitable; misery is optional. It's all in how we look at it! As for the 100 LOL... *blushes* That one's old; I actually hit 200 this past December and the cheezlords did a very nice blog write-up for me...but thanks! *hugs*
I'm willing to bet if you snooped around online a bit you'd find some free accounting refresher exercises. Just a thought. You need to use that degree and get yourself in a place that appreciates you. Me, I dyed my hair "normal" (PLEH! PLEH! PLEH!) just in case I got a call for interview but you know what? JA says if a place doesn't like my purple hair I wouldn't be happy there anyway - guess who's buying dye tomorrow! Happy Sundog, baby boy. *hugs*
Your "H2O too" LOL cracked up JA like nobody's business!! I even shared the cubed one on borkfayse. :o) What is this "money" of which you speak? Yeah, it's tough these days. I got a call-back from a job application and they wanted to schedule an interview, then they told me the position was actually in a field office over fifty miles out of town. O_o An hour drive each way? SERIOUSLY? For less than $10 an hour? Not happening - I would owe the local gas distributor more than I brought home! *sigh* Oh, well, now I just wait for the next call. :o) You still working at the same place? Happy Caturday!
Baby boy, JA and I have been together over twenty years and believe me: MOMENTS HAPPEN! I'm glad you found someone who treats you good. He'd better, or I'll kick his ass. Not much new here. I'm doing the outta-work thing again (the stress at the last one damn near killed me), teaching myself new tricks on the pyooter and waiting impatiently to see Dark Shadows. You? I can't tell you how *good* it is to "see" you again! *hugshugshugs*
There are some things in life that are never 100% over and done, and that's okay - it's how we learn. But, I promised you it would get better, da? And it did, da? Time is an awesome thing. So what is going on with you these days? Still crunching numbers and behaving yourself? *snerk* I'm working again, for a company I left some years ago. Felt pretty weird going back but I'm glad I did. I'm a bankruptcy clerk - mail, emails, disposition alerts from the court system - and I'm loving it! Hope you're having a groovy day! *hugs*
Ain't nothing creepy about that! I shall go find you in email...please bear in mind that I don't text (I don't even know why I have a cell phone!) and once JA's home I consider my time kind of limited...but he's used to odd characters calling me at all hours of the day and night. And it was very sweet of you to consider him in your request! Although, as I'm sure you may have guessed, I find it far easier to beg forgiveness than ask for permission.
Smiling is the best revenge. Seriously. And it's been my experience that those who've been the nastiest to me have been the hardest to fall...I'm not going to lie about it, either: I REALLY enjoy it when it happens. Not that I actively wish harm on anyone - I try very hard to never do that - but that whole goes-around-comes-around business is pretty sweet. The day will come. Just smile when it does. :o)
Dude...this is harsh but it needs to be said: NO ONE who *ever* loved you could do or say the things he has. I am the most vindictive bitch alive - ask anyone who knows me well - yet I have never ever been as cruel to anyone I once loved as this assmunch has been to you. I believe he was being honest when he first hurt you - it was never anything truly serious for him. I think that once that sinks in you'll be a long way toward healing. And I'm sorry - I know it hurts. *hugs*
You're right about the moving on thing, too...honestly, though, I don't imagine there was ANYthing you did wrong, and I'm willing to bet that he'll tell anyone who'll listen that nothing you could ever do would be right. Some people are just that way - I had an ex like that, too: I was too independent, then I was too clingy; I was trying to control him then I didn't give a shit what he did. It all depended on who he was talking to at the time. If you're going to blame yourself for anything then let it be for being too tender-hearted, k? *hugs*
*LOL* Unless, of course, you're like me and end up with a tear in your beer... (I was always a rather maudlin drunk, unless Jaeger was involved and then I was ready to fist-fight any and all comers...) It does sound, though, like you could use some time away. *hugs*
*hugs* Been there and done that...and did it back in a time when I was told that my grief wasn't real because gay love isn't real. I'm not going to let that happen to anyone I care for. I meant it when I said, "I'm here for ya." Yes...the anger is a very necessary thing, and it's good to use it...it tends to cauterize the wound, da? Just don't let it become the thing that drives you because that would be sad. You'll be more cautious for a while but I believe you'll love again, and it'll be someone who doesn't play you for the EMOTIONAL VAMPIRISM. *hugs*
And just why the hell shouldn't you feel that way? Dude, he played you and you've got every damn right in the world to be pissed about it! Everything you've told me about your ex adds up to one obvious (to me, anyway) conclusion: The boy is a drama llama and a player. He's saying things he *KNOWS* will hurt you and he's getting off on it. How much do you wanna bet that the phone call you got was for someone else's benefit, that someone else was listening while he left it? You don't need that kind of shit. Kick that steaming pile to the curb. If I may be so bold...you are an upright and outstanding gay man; he's just a little fag...and you and I both know that there's a difference. *hugs*
Aww, honey...that sucks. Truly. I just hope that now that he's exposed himself as the LIAR and the HEARTLESS IDIOT that he really is, you'll be able to heal and move on. Believe me, there WILL come a day when you look back and ask yourself what was so freaking wonderful about him. I know it's *really* tough to see right now, but very tear you shed for him is a victory for him...don't let him hurt you anymore. Block his number, his email and everything else you can. Smiling is the best revenge. *hugs*
Sucks to be a mere mortal, doesn't it? *sigh* I understand the need to take a break...I took that same break once upon a time. As far as meds go, ask your doc about Wellbutrin...evens you out and actually gives you a bit of "pep" and even makes smoking a little less pleasurable. Damn, I miss it...! *hugs*